Zoe is still at the vet. She hasn't eaten in almost 3 days now. She's on IV fluids. The vet says that we should give her 3 full days on the fluids. If she still hasn't eaten then I have to make a decision. I wanted to say I don't want to make a decision, you make a decision but I didn't of course. It's my decision and I know what it is. I left work early to go to the vet and stay with Zoe to see if my being there would get her to eat. When I put her on the floor she just went into a corner and lay down. I sat on the floor with her, I held her on my lap. Every time I moved, she cried. She didn't eat. The vet wants me to take her home tomorrow to see if she'll eat when she's around familiar surroundings. I hope so too but I don't think so.
If she does eat, then she'll be ok for a little while. She has severe kidney disease now and borderline diabetes. It's too much for a sweet little cat whose 18yrs old. I've been saying she's 16 but the vet look it up and she's 18. So is Gertie and she has kidney disease too but she's eating so she's ok for now. To end a life, even when it's the best thing, the right thing, it's just aches you know.
I'm so sorry you (and sweet little Zoe) are having to go through this. I know how hard it can be and you are right - it is no small thing to make that decision, even when it is the right one.
Sending many hugs your way...
Posted by: Diahn | April 23, 2008 at 09:51 PM
Especially when it's your little mate. I am so, so sorry for you and your little lady.
Posted by: Robyn Smith | April 23, 2008 at 09:52 PM
My heart is aching for you, having two cats myself who I simply adore!May you find courage to make a decision and make many memories by capturing her on paper, like the beautiful one you've done..
ronell
Posted by: Africantapestry | April 24, 2008 at 02:27 AM
I'm so sorry you are going through this hun. Sending her get better prayers. This is hard.
Posted by: Marissa | April 24, 2008 at 07:42 AM
I'm so sorry you are going through this. You have my prayers.
Posted by: Marissa | April 24, 2008 at 07:43 AM
sorry about the double post. the internets are being difficult this morning
Posted by: Marissa | April 24, 2008 at 07:44 AM
oh, Janey, I feel for you....I know how hard this is.Take Zoe home, she'll be less scared, and if she is not in extreme pain, she'll probably prefer to be there. I think. Sending thoughts of comfort your way....
Posted by: marina | April 24, 2008 at 07:57 PM